Greg shares how a devastating accident—shattering his heel after a fall—became a turning point in his life. With over a dozen surgeries, chronic pain, and uncertainty about his future, he was forced to slow down and fully commit to recovery. What could have been a breaking point instead became a foundation for growth, resilience, and spiritual connection.

The conversation dives deep into:

• Navigating recovery through physical pain and injury
• The mental battle of uncertainty and fear
• Managing prescribed medication in recovery
• Building integrity, trust, and self-awareness
• The realities of long-term sobriety (not perfection, but progress)
• Finding purpose, peace, and connection in everyday life

Greg also reflects on major life milestones in recovery, including marriage, fatherhood, and rebuilding relationships—proving that transformation is possible with commitment and support.

This episode is an honest, raw, and inspiring look at what it truly means to stay clean, face life head-on, and grow into a better version of yourself.

Now nearly four years clean, John opens up about rebuilding his life from the ground up: becoming a full-time father, working in drug and alcohol services, and even being invited to Buckingham Palace for his contributions to the recovery community.

The conversation dives deep into:

• Life in recovery and the reality of “life on life’s terms”
• Overcoming grief after losing his son and finally finding acceptance
• The challenges of parenting, relationships, and responsibility in sobriety
• Letting go of old behaviours like ego, anger, and pride
• The power of the 12-step program, service, and spirituality

John’s story is raw, honest, and ultimately hopeful—a testament to what’s possible when someone fully surrenders and commits to change.

“From crack house to Buckingham Palace in four years.”

If you’re struggling, in recovery, or supporting someone who is—this episode is a must-listen.

Kent shares his journey from high-flying success—playing elite rugby, studying at Oxford, and earning millions in the finance world—to hitting rock bottom in rehab, feeling completely empty despite “having it all.” He opens up about the hidden struggles of high achievers, the dangers of chasing external success, and how addiction can thrive behind wealth, status, and ambition.

Now working as a counselor and mentor, Kent helps clients around the world navigate addiction, imposter syndrome, trauma, and the pressures of success. Together, the hosts explore:

• Why success doesn’t equal happiness
• The link between high performance and addiction
• The reality of recovery and long-term consequences
• How helping others becomes the greatest reward
• Misconceptions about addiction and the stigma surrounding it
• The power of fellowship, connection, and staying teachable

This episode is a raw reminder that recovery isn’t just about getting clean—it’s about finding purpose, connection, and meaning beyond the chaos.

If you’ve ever felt like external success wasn’t enough—or you’re on your own recovery journey—this conversation will resonate deeply.

After reaching a breaking point in his relationship, Jack found hope in recovery meetings and made the decision to change. Now a father, he reflects on how connection, honesty, and community helped him rebuild his life and find a new way to live.

The hosts begin by discussing a recent stag weekend, showing that it’s possible to fully enjoy social events without alcohol or drugs. Despite late nights and high-energy environments, they describe feeling genuinely present, free, and even euphoric while sober. This stands in stark contrast to their past, where substance use often led to insecurity, paranoia, and a lack of real enjoyment.

A key theme throughout the episode is the idea of an internal “void.” During addiction, both hosts tried to fill this emptiness with material success, money, and status, believing these things would bring lasting happiness. However, they explain that the more they chased these external rewards, the more empty they felt. Even in wealthy, image-driven environments, feelings of comparison and inadequacy can still surface, reinforcing the idea that external validation doesn’t solve internal struggles.

Instead, recovery has taught them that true fulfillment comes from connection. Building relationships, being honest about struggles, helping others, and engaging in recovery communities have become essential tools. These practices replace substances as coping mechanisms and provide a deeper, more sustainable sense of purpose and wellbeing.

The episode also explores how recovery has transformed their relationships, particularly with family. Where addiction once caused distance, selfishness, and instability, sobriety has allowed them to be present, caring, and emotionally available. Both hosts reflect on how close they came to losing their families, and how that fear became a turning point that pushed them to fully commit to change.

Ultimately, the episode emphasizes that real freedom doesn’t come from substances, money, or status, but from living authentically and being connected to others. Max describes feeling “rich inside,” highlighting a shift from external success to internal peace and gratitude. The conversation reinforces that recovery is not just about stopping harmful behaviors, but about building a meaningful and fulfilling life.

Growing up in a loving home, Martin always felt like he didn’t quite belong. That underlying feeling followed him into his teenage years, where alcohol quickly became the solution — giving him confidence, connection, and a sense of ease he’d never experienced before. From there, things escalated. What started as partying turned into years of drug and alcohol use, eventually becoming a daily necessity.

Despite building a successful career in the city and maintaining the appearance of a normal life, addiction was always at the centre of everything. Behind the scenes, Martin was living a double life — lying, hiding, and constantly chasing the next escape.

It wasn’t until his mid-40s, when the consequences began to catch up with him, that things started to unravel. Relationships broke down, work suffered, and he found himself back at square one — forced to confront the reality of his situation.

Martin talks openly about hitting rock bottom, returning to recovery, and what finally changed this time around. From daily routines like prayer and meditation to the importance of consistency, connection, and humility, he shares what it really takes to stay sober long term.

This conversation dives deep into the mindset of addiction — the self-centred thinking, the denial, and the illusion of control — as well as the growth that comes with recovery.

Today, Martin is nearly seven years clean. He’s rebuilt relationships with his family, found peace in his daily life, and now helps others on their own journey through sponsorship and service.

This episode is a reminder that no matter how far things go, change is always possible — but it requires honesty, willingness, and action.

Early Life

Dev describes growing up in a loving and stable home in Watford with both parents and a younger brother. Despite having a supportive upbringing and no major trauma, he often felt uncomfortable in his own skin and struggled with low self-esteem. From a young age he craved approval and wanted to be liked, particularly by his father.

Looking back, Dev recognises that addictive patterns were present long before he ever used drugs. As a child he displayed obsessive behaviours such as overeating and compulsively collecting items like Pokémon cards and football stickers. These behaviours were ways of coping with uncomfortable feelings.

First Experiences With Drugs

Dev first used cannabis in secondary school. Although he initially disliked the feeling, he continued using because it helped him fit in socially. Being part of a group that used drugs gave him a sense of belonging and attention he had always sought.

Over time his drug use expanded to alcohol, ecstasy and cocaine. Selling drugs at school gave him a sense of power and popularity, which reinforced his lifestyle and pushed him deeper into addiction.

Consequences of Addiction

As Dev’s addiction progressed, the consequences became severe. He experienced multiple prison sentences, legal trouble, job loss, and broken relationships. At one point he overdosed after taking MDMA at a rave and woke up in hospital days later with no memory of the event.

Even after these frightening experiences, he continued using, showing how powerful addiction can be.

Fatherhood and the Desire to Change

When Dev’s daughter was born, he experienced a powerful emotional shift. Holding her for the first time made him determined to become a better father and stop using drugs.

However, despite his genuine desire to change, he discovered that willpower alone was not enough. Without understanding addiction or having support, he quickly fell back into old patterns.

Recovery and Treatment

Dev eventually entered treatment at the Lighthouse recovery centre, where he began to understand addiction for the first time. Hearing others share similar experiences helped him realise he was not alone.

He started attending Narcotics Anonymous meetings and became part of a recovery community. While he experienced periods of sobriety, his journey included setbacks, dishonesty, and relapse before he began to fully engage with the recovery process.

Finding Faith

After achieving three and a half years clean, Dev relapsed and lost many of the things he had built in his life. Returning to recovery was difficult, and he struggled emotionally.

During this time he began attending church and exploring faith. In October he committed his life to Christianity and was later baptised in December. He describes this spiritual awakening as a major turning point in his recovery, helping him find inner peace and purpose.

Life Today

Today Dev has eight and a half months clean and lives a calmer, more balanced life. He maintains a strong relationship with his daughter and works in supported housing helping men in recovery.

He emphasises that recovery requires honesty, service to others, community support, and a spiritual foundation.

Key Message

Dev’s story demonstrates that addiction can affect anyone, regardless of background, and that recovery often involves setbacks before lasting change occurs. Through community, faith, and helping others, he has built a new life grounded in purpose and compassion.

Tony grew up on a council estate in East London, raised by hardworking parents alongside his brother and sister. When Tony was young, his sister was tragically run over and lost her leg, an event that deeply impacted the family. Although the trauma was never openly discussed, Tony believes it contributed to his father becoming a heavy drinker and created an emotionally difficult home environment. tony

As a child, Tony found escape and confidence through football, where he excelled and even attracted interest from professional clubs like Arsenal and West Ham. On the pitch he felt confident and valued, but off the pitch he struggled with insecurity and fear, particularly within the challenging environment of the council estate. tony

Tony began experimenting with substances at a young age. What started with cigarettes and cannabis gradually escalated into more serious drug use as he searched for relief from feelings of inadequacy and anxiety. Eventually, he discovered heroin, which he describes as providing the first true sense of internal peace and comfort he had ever experienced. tony

However, this relief quickly turned into a decades-long addiction. Tony spent nearly 30 years using Class A drugs, trapped in a cycle of crime, desperation, and daily survival. His addiction caused immense pain to his family, including witnessing the death of his brother at 26, which still wasn’t enough to stop his own addiction at the time. tony

Eventually, after years of despair and failed attempts to quit, Tony reached a point where he internally knew he needed help. Through the criminal justice system, he entered a 12-step rehabilitation program, where he finally found hope. Seeing counselors and other recovering addicts who had transformed their lives inspired him to believe recovery was possible. tony

Tony embraced treatment, completed rehab, and began working the 12-step recovery program. Through this process he developed self-awareness, confronted past trauma, and rebuilt his life.

Today Tony has been clean for over 11 years and now uses his experience to help others struggling with addiction. His story highlights how unresolved trauma, emotional pain, and the search for belonging can lead people into addiction — but also how connection, honesty, and recovery communities can help people rebuild their lives.

From DJing major clubs like Opium Lounge, The Warehouse, Funky Buddha and playing internationally, Ross lived the fast-paced lifestyle of music, money, women and substances. Behind the decks he looked in control — but behind closed doors his addiction was spiralling into isolation, paranoia and darkness.

In this episode, Ross opens up about:

• Growing up in Hertfordshire and feeling different from an early age
• Being introduced to club culture at 16
• The progression from weekend partying to dark, isolated binges
• The mental obsession and “phenomenon of craving” before the first line
• Why willpower wasn’t enough — even after running marathons and triathlons
• Getting sober at 34 and finding freedom through 12-step recovery
• Staying clean in an industry where drinking and drugs are normalised
• Becoming reliable, consistent and successful in business without substances
• Fatherhood, perspective and life with twin daughters

Ross speaks honestly about paranoia, using alone in hotel rooms, chasing the illusion of the “champagne lifestyle,” and how addiction is far more powerful than love or ambition.

This episode is raw, relatable and hopeful — especially for anyone who believes they can’t get sober in the party scene.

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Amber opens up about growing up feeling different and self-conscious, discovering alcohol at a young age, and later developing a dependence on cocaine that quickly escalated from social use into a destructive cycle. She discusses how ADHD, untreated trauma, and the search to feel “normal” fueled her addiction — and how becoming a mother added both love and pressure during her darkest moments. Amber

After hitting emotional rock bottom and seeking help through A&E, Amber entered mental health treatment but struggled because the root issue — addiction — wasn’t fully addressed. Relapses followed, teaching her painful lessons about the difference between simply being abstinent and truly working a recovery program. Amber

Everything changed when she fully committed to meetings, sponsorship, service, and the 12-step process. Through honesty, structure, and community, Amber rebuilt her life — repairing relationships with her daughter, developing confidence, and discovering new ambitions like drama school. Now one year clean, she shares how recovery has given her peace, purpose, and the ability to show up consistently for life. Amber

This episode explores:

• The link between ADHD, mental health, and addiction
• Why relapse can be part of the journey
• The power of service, fellowship, and connection
• Medication in recovery and navigating grey areas
• How recovery transforms parenting, confidence, and daily life

A heartfelt conversation about hope, resilience, and what’s possible when someone truly puts “two feet” into recovery.

As Harry entered adulthood, his substance use escalated from social drinking to daily reliance on alcohol and cocaine. He describes maintaining work and responsibilities for a time, but eventually falling into patterns of secrecy, financial strain, paranoia, and emotional instability. The pressure of moving house, building a family, and trying to live up to expectations intensified his addiction. Even becoming a father — which he hoped would change everything — wasn’t enough to stop the cycle, and feelings of guilt and shame continued to grow.

The turning point came when Harry reached a severe mental health crisis, feeling overwhelmed and suicidal. He recalls moments of deep despair, including walking alone in a forest and later confronting himself in a mirror, which sparked a powerful realisation that he needed help. This moment led him to attend recovery meetings, where he began the process of rebuilding his life. Through recovery, he learned that sobriety wasn’t just about quitting substances, but about changing his mindset, letting go of ego, and learning healthier ways to connect with others.

Since getting clean, Harry explains how his priorities have shifted towards reliability, honesty, and family life. He talks about becoming a more present partner and father, embracing emotional openness, and redefining what masculinity means to him. Motivated by his own growth, he started a men’s mental-health group called “The Man Cave,” offering a supportive space where men can talk openly about struggles such as anxiety, relationships, work pressures, and identity — not just addiction.

Overall, the episode highlights themes of vulnerability, accountability, and transformation. Harry’s story emphasises that recovery is an ongoing journey of personal change, where learning to drop the mask and ask for help becomes the foundation for a more authentic and meaningful life.

The conversation moves through mental health, physical wellbeing, gratitude, forgiveness, and the power of human connection. Chris and Max also talk openly about meetings, sponsorship, and 12-step recovery, explaining why simply walking through the door can be one of the bravest decisions a person ever makes.

This episode isn’t about having all the answers. It’s about hope, honesty, and reminding anyone listening that you don’t have to be clean, confident, or certain — you just have to show up.

If you’re new to recovery, thinking about getting help, or supporting someone who is, this episode is for you.

Mike’s substance use began socially with alcohol and escalated when cocaine entered the picture during nights out and London work culture. What started as confidence and connection gradually became compulsion, secrecy, and isolation. He describes the shift from “fun” to needing drugs just to feel normal, using alone, lying about money, and living a double life that eventually led to the breakdown of his marriage. At his lowest point, overwhelmed by shame and consequences, Mike believed suicide was his only way out — a crisis that ultimately forced him to admit the truth and ask for help. Mike I got clean on the screen

He entered recovery during COVID through Zoom meetings, throwing himself into the program with willingness, service, and connection. But his journey wasn’t linear. Mike speaks openly about multiple relapses, including one he hid for two years while continuing to claim clean time. The emotional weight of that dishonesty led to anger, relationship damage, and mental instability. When the truth finally came out, he reset his clean date and describes the relief of honesty as a turning point in his recovery. Mike I got clean on the screen

The episode also explores Mike’s mental health struggles. After a suicide attempt involving medication, he was hospitalized and later diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (EUPD) alongside autism. With treatment, medication, and a deeper understanding of his emotional patterns, he now recognizes how mental health and addiction intertwine — and how recovery requires addressing both. Mike I got clean on the screen

Now one year into an honest stretch of recovery, Mike explains what’s different this time: in-person meetings, active step work, full transparency with his sponsor, a small but strong support network, and a willingness to prioritize healing over relationships and comfort. He talks about finding joy in ordinary life — home, routine, connection, and helping newcomers — rather than chaos and nightlife. Recovery, for him, feels like being “born again,” not in a religious sense, but as a complete reset and chance to live with integrity instead of performance. Mike I got clean on the screen

This episode is a powerful reminder that addiction is about far more than substances. It’s about identity, shame, mental health, and the courage to tell the truth. Mike’s story shows that relapse doesn’t have to be the end — but secrets will keep people stuck. With honesty, community, and willingness, change is possible.

Dean traces these feelings back to childhood, describing a loving but emotionally limited upbringing where he constantly sought validation, especially from his father. That need to be liked and approved of carried into adulthood and fed into his cocaine use, which he says calmed his mind, made him feel normal, and gave him a sense of belonging. What started as social use turned into a 20-year addiction marked by functioning on the outside while feeling powerless within. A defining trauma came when Dean found his father after he died by suicide at a job they were working on together — an event that still haunts him and intensified his using, alongside deep guilt about not being present for his family during that time.

After losing his business, stability, and sense of self, Dean reached breaking point and was taken to his first meeting through an intervention. Though frightened and disconnected at first, he has remained clean ever since, something he is proud of. But he’s clear that recovery hasn’t been a fairytale: he still battles self-obsession, emotional overwhelm, relationship pain, and the lasting impact his addiction had on his children, especially his eldest son who once saw him as a hero. He admits he’s less connected to meetings and fellowship than he once was and feels the difference, warning others not to follow his example of only “dipping a toe in.” The episode is a raw reminder that being clean and being emotionally well aren’t the same — and that honesty, connection, and helping others remain vital parts of the ongoing work of recovery.

Nick opens up about living with relentless anxiety, low self-worth, and an overwhelming internal dialogue that shaped his life from childhood. Despite appearing confident on the outside, he describes years of people-pleasing, overthinking, and emotional exhaustion that ultimately fuelled his substance use. What began with alcohol as a way to “feel normal” gradually escalated into a destructive cycle involving drugs, work obsession, and deteriorating mental health.

The conversation traces Nick’s life from a chaotic childhood and early escape into the high-pressure world of professional kitchens, through the culture of long hours, perfectionism, and substance use that often accompanies the hospitality industry. Although outwardly successful, Nick explains how his addiction and untreated mental health issues led to breakdowns, damaged relationships, and profound shame.

A major turning point comes when Nick speaks candidly about being sectioned, diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and finally confronting the reality that substances were never the solution—but a way of coping with pain he didn’t yet understand. With honesty and humility, he reflects on the impact his illness had on his family, particularly his ex-wife and children, and the process of taking responsibility without drowning in self-blame.

The episode also explores themes of recovery, accountability, compassion, and growth. Nick shares how finding recovery later in life helped him gain clarity, self-awareness, and a sense of peace he never thought possible. Through humour, vulnerability, and shared understanding, the hosts and Nick highlight an essential truth: recovery isn’t about perfection—it’s about learning to live, feel, and show up honestly.

This episode is a moving reminder that behind addiction is often unaddressed pain, and that healing is possible at any stage of life.

Rather than focusing solely on substances, the episode highlights addiction as a disease of thinking, feeling, and living, showing how it affects every area of life: relationships, finances, mental health, self-worth, and identity. Christopher and Max openly compare their very different patterns of use—daily use versus binge use—to demonstrate that how often or how much someone uses is far less important than the loss of control and the consequences.

Throughout the episode, they share raw stories of secrecy, shame, manipulation, broken trust, physical and emotional exhaustion, and the relentless mental obsession that fuels addiction. They also challenge common misconceptions, such as “I wasn’t that bad” or “I can handle it on my own,” and explain the crucial difference between having a drug problem and being an addict.

Importantly, the episode isn’t about labelling or diagnosing—it’s about self-honesty. The hosts stress that no one else can decide if you’re an addict; only you can. If the questions provoke discomfort, emotion, or recognition, that reaction itself may be meaningful.

The episode closes with a message of hope: recovery is possible, help is available, and life on the other side of addiction is calmer, freer, and more authentic. Whether you’re questioning your own use, worried about someone you love, or already on a recovery journey, Am I an Addict? offers insight, compassion, and a powerful starting point for change.

Using real-life examples from their own relationships, parenting, road rage, social anxiety, and everyday interactions, Chris and Max unpack how self-obsession quietly drives emotional pain, conflict, and addictive thinking. The conversation is grounded in recovery literature, particularly the concept of The Triangle of Self Obsession—made up of resentment (the past), anger (the present), and fear (the future).

The episode highlights how addiction can arrest emotional growth, leaving many addicts stuck in a childlike state where validation, control, and external approval are desperately sought. Chris reads and reflects on recovery literature that explains how most people naturally mature out of this phase, while addicts often medicate discomfort instead—delaying emotional maturity and reinforcing self-centered thinking.

Throughout the episode, the hosts show how self-obsession plays out subtly: overthinking text messages, craving approval from strangers, feeling under-appreciated, reacting defensively, or assuming everything is a personal attack. They also emphasize that this isn’t about shame—but awareness, responsibility, and action.

Importantly, the episode offers hope and practical solutions. Chris and Max discuss how recovery tools—such as inventory, making amends, reaching out, acceptance, love, faith, and service to others—allow them to step out of the triangle. They stress that progress doesn’t mean perfection, but rather increasing the space between emotional blow-ups and responding more like an adult than a child.

The central message is clear and uncompromising: to break free from addiction and emotional suffering, we must break the triangle of self-obsession. We must grow up—or the disease will eventually destroy us.

A raw, relatable, and compassionate episode that reminds listeners they are not alone—and that there is a solution.

The episode explores how breaking routine over the holidays can deeply affect addicts in recovery, triggering emotional sensitivity, irritability, overthinking, and a return to old thought patterns such as blame, control, people-pleasing, and self-criticism. Both hosts discuss struggles with family dynamics, overstimulation, and the pressure of multiple personalities coming together during Christmas.

They reflect on the importance of structure, routine, and daily recovery practices, highlighting how even a few days disconnected from meetings, sponsors, or recovery messages can leave them feeling unsettled. Themes of self-awareness versus self-obsession run throughout, as the hosts acknowledge that awareness can be both a gift and a curse.

Food, body image, and control around diet and exercise are discussed candidly, with both men recognising long-standing struggles with obsession, self-worth, and aligning physical health with mental and spiritual wellbeing. The conversation also touches on injury, fear of failure, and the addictive mindset looking for excuses to step away from discipline.

The episode moves into reflections on gratitude, connection, and service, contrasting their family-filled Christmas experiences with those who face loneliness or homelessness during the holidays. They acknowledge the vital role of fellowship, outreach events, and simple acts of connection—such as phone calls, messages, or small moments of kindness—in sustaining recovery.

Spirituality features strongly, with discussions around church, prayer, meditation, Step 11, and the need to “fill the spiritual tank,” especially when life becomes busy or emotionally charged. Both hosts identify judgmental thinking as a warning sign that their recovery needs attention.

Looking ahead to 2026, Chris and Max talk openly about growth areas: improving balance, deepening spiritual practice, embracing change in work and routine, seeking counselling, meditation, and continuing to give back through sponsorship and the podcast.

The episode closes with powerful moments of gratitude, remembrance, and emotional reflection, reinforcing a central message: recovery is a daily practice, connection is essential, and growth comes from getting out of self and staying spiritually grounded.

Dapper Laughs opens up about his early relationship with drink and drugs, growing up around chaos, violence, and addiction, and using humour as a way to cope and fit in. What started as partying and bravado slowly turned into heavy cocaine use, emotional comedowns, and living life in extremes — highs followed by some very dark lows.

He talks openly about being cancelled at the height of his career, losing work, public backlash, and how the death of his dad pushed him even further into addiction. Things reached a breaking point when he found himself suicidal and alone, leading to a late-night call to the Samaritans that would become a huge turning point in his life.

The episode digs into how addiction doesn’t always look the same for everyone — from binge users to daily users — and how mixing drink and drugs can seriously mess with your head. There’s also a big focus on men’s mental health, loneliness, and why so many men struggle to speak up before things spiral.

Recovery hasn’t been perfect or straightforward. Dapper Laughs talks honestly about detox, early sobriety driven by ego, struggling with meetings, and how easy it is to neglect recovery when life gets busy with work, kids, and success. He also shares why he set up the Facebook group Men and Their Emotions, giving lads a safe place to talk openly and support each other.

Christopher and Max bring their own lived experience into the conversation, reinforcing powerful recovery truths: connection matters, ego can hold you back, and if you don’t put recovery first, you risk losing everything else anyway.

This episode is real, relatable, and full of hope — a reminder that no matter how messy things get, change is possible and you don’t have to do it on your own.

Matt shares how his struggles began long before substances entered the picture. Growing up feeling unseen, failing the 11+ exam, craving his father’s approval, and later feeling physically and emotionally “behind” his peers all contributed to a deep sense of inadequacy. Football became his first escape, followed by cannabis in his early teens, which quickly developed into a daily habit that numbed his thoughts and emotions.

As Matt moved into adulthood, his substance use escalated. Alcohol, cocaine, and cannabis became daily necessities rather than choices. What began as social use turned into years of chaotic, exhausting routines—using before work, drinking to cope, lying to loved ones, and living with constant shame and fear. Despite holding down a job in the building trade and appearing “functional,” Matt describes an inner life marked by isolation, dishonesty, and despair.

Attempts to control or moderate his use only deepened the pain. After meeting a partner who challenged him to confront his addiction, Matt managed long periods of abstinence without support—white-knuckling sobriety while remaining mentally obsessed with alcohol. This period culminated in profound emotional turmoil, made even more devastating by the suicide of his brother.

A turning point came when Matt was introduced to recovery literature and, soon after, attended his first NA meeting. For the first time, he saw himself clearly as an addict and recognised that “treats” and moderation were simply relapses in disguise. Although early recovery was uncomfortable and fear-filled, Matt stayed, listened, and slowly followed suggestions—getting a sponsor, working the steps, and learning how to be honest.

Now approaching three years clean, Matt reflects on the freedom he’s found through recovery: emotional peace, genuine friendships, integrity, and the ability to live life without constant self-medication. He speaks openly about the life-changing impact of Step Four, the importance of honesty, and how recovery has transformed not just his substance use, but his relationships and sense of self.

This episode is a raw, relatable reminder that recovery is possible—even after decades of addiction—and that real change often happens slowly, subtly, and through connection with others who understand.

Paul reflects on childhood anxiety, fear, and the generational impact of trauma, and how those early experiences shaped his addiction. He takes us inside the moment when life finally became unmanageable — leading him to rehab, surrender, and a life-changing decision to step away from his career to focus solely on recovery. Now over 21 years clean, Paul speaks candidly about the 12-step program, trauma therapy, spiritual awakening, and what it truly means to live at ease with yourself. This episode is a must-listen for anyone in recovery, considering recovery, or seeking hope, honesty, and proof that real transformation is possible.

Steve describes growing up in a stable, loving household, with no obvious signs that addiction would ever be part of his life. Gambling entered harmlessly—small bets during family outings to the dog tracks, or casual football accumulators. However, in his early twenties, after taking a job in London, gambling shifted from occasional fun to a daily compulsion. Lunchtime visits to the bookies became a regular ritual; soon he was timing his breaks around race schedules, placing as many bets as possible, and craving the buzz and adrenaline that came with it. He explains how he would literally push past people in betting shops just to get a bet on, because being “in action” felt essential.

As the addiction deepened, Steve’s life became dominated by secrecy, debt, and anxiety. He began taking out loans, extending overdrafts multiple times in a week, and fabricating stories to hide the truth from his wife. He recounts a painful memory of promising to pay for a birthday dinner for both families. Although he briefly won enough money to cover the evening, he lost it all again on the way home, leading to desperate lies and shame. This incident was one of many that left him feeling trapped, exhausted, and sick with worry. Stress from gambling even led to chest pains so severe he ended up in hospital, although he admits he returned to gambling the very next day.

By early 2016, the addiction had reached a breaking point. His wife discovered new loans and knew instantly that the gambling had returned. Steve describes this moment as the day his world collapsed—but also the day recovery truly began. His last bet was on 19 February 2016. A week later, once his family had dealt with an unrelated medical emergency, he attended his first Gamblers Anonymous meeting. He immediately felt a weight lift from his shoulders. For the first time, he was in a room full of people who understood exactly what he’d been through.

Steve explains the power of GA: the unity, structure, honesty, and sense of belonging. Meetings helped him realise he could not recover alone. He embraced the practical safeguards too, handing full control of finances to his wife to avoid temptation. He continues to attend regularly and even chairs many meetings, sharing both his gambling history and the challenges of everyday life. He’s learned to listen to others, accept guidance, and lean on the group whenever he feels vulnerable.

Recovery has transformed Steve’s daily life. He describes the relief of waking up without shame, hiding nothing from his wife, and being fully present for his children. He talks emotionally about watching his son play football or attending parents’ evenings—moments he used to miss or experience through a fog of anxiety. Sobriety has brought his emotions back in a powerful way; sometimes overwhelming, but ultimately grounding and fulfilling.

Towards the end of the episode, Steve offers advice to anyone still struggling. He urges them to walk into a meeting, even if it feels intimidating, and to take things one day at a time. Recovery, he explains, brings back not just stability, but time, honesty, connection, and a sense of self that addiction destroys. He emphasises that life will never be perfect, but the tools he’s gained through GA allow him to handle challenges without turning back to gambling.

The conversation closes with Steve reflecting on his gratitude for the life he has today—a life built on honesty, accountability, unity, and the daily choice to stay in recovery.

Simon shares how he discovered alcohol at thirteen and instantly fell in love with its ability to change how he felt about himself. From there his drug use progressed quickly—first cannabis, then speed, ecstasy and cocaine. By sixteen he was dealing to fund his habit. Although he tried at times to manage his using, especially once he became a father, alcohol remained constant. After his marriage broke down, his drinking and drug use intensified, leading him deeper into addiction.

The turning point came at forty, when a dealer encouraged him to try crack cocaine. What followed was rapid decline: secret using, smoking crack while caring for his children, constant obsession, and repeated attempts to stop that only pushed him further down. Eventually he reached a devastating emotional and spiritual bottom, even attempting to overdose. During a desperate moment in “Dry January,” he reached out to a friend in recovery who took him to his first meeting. Simon describes feeling an immediate sense of safety and connection the moment he walked through the door.

From that day, he has remained clean. Simon threw himself into the 12-step program, finding deep healing through the steps, especially in his moral inventory and amends. He shares powerful moments with his children, ex-wife, and parents—conversations filled with truth, vulnerability, and forgiveness. Today, with over 22 months clean, Simon lives a completely different life. He maintains regular meetings, service commitments, daily gratitude, and prayer. His relationships with his kids are strong, co-parenting is harmonious, his career has progressed, and even his brother has begun changing his own relationship with substances.

This episode highlights the reality of addiction’s progression, the pain it causes families, and the extraordinary transformation recovery can bring. Simon’s story is one of honesty, humility, and real hope.

After leaving treatment, George dives into meetings and begins feeling moments of hope—only to experience a painful six-day relapse that becomes one of the darkest and most frightening periods of his life. That experience brings true willingness, leading him to commit fully to recovery with two rounds of 90 meetings in 90 days.

George reflects on mental health challenges, including delayed psychosis and later being diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and how he balances medication, stability, and recovery. He shares how he builds a personal understanding of a higher power through nature, step work, and daily practice.

The episode explores steps four through seven, character defects, expectations, emotional maturity, and learning to correct behaviours quickly. George also describes making amends to his family—including tender moments with his parents and younger brother—and the ongoing amends he practices through being a present, loving father.

Raw, reflective, and full of hope, George’s story is a powerful reminder that recovery is messy, spiritual, practical, and life-changing—one day at a time.

George recalls how Addicted to Recovery itself helped him through a dark patch when paranoia and self-doubt left him isolated. At two and a half years clean, he nearly relapsed — a stark reminder that no matter how long you’ve been sober, the disease of addiction can still whisper in your ear.

He talks candidly about his early life: a sensitive, anxious child growing up in a loving family, but one marked by confusion and emotional turbulence after a violent incident at his parents’ wedding. Experimentation with drink and drugs began young — alcohol at 12, cannabis at 13, pills at 14, cocaine by 15 — and soon spiraled into chaos.

By 17, George was hospitalized twice with kidney failure, yet denial and ego kept him going. His late teens and early twenties were filled with drug use, risky work environments, toxic relationships, and growing internal conflict. A surprise pregnancy at 19 and becoming a father brought moments of clarity — but also fresh pain, guilt, and fear.

Part One ends as George’s life begins to unravel, setting the stage for his eventual decision to seek help and enter recovery — a story he’ll share in next week’s episode.

Paul recounts his early struggles finding a treatment center, the kindness of hospital staff who let him stay five extra days, and the emotional start to his rehab journey at Hope House in Weston-super-Mare. He speaks candidly about crying daily during his first week in treatment, the emotional exhaustion of addiction, and the relief of finding genuine love and hope in recovery.

From there, Paul’s story unfolds as one of rebuilding — gaining his first home, paying his first bills, and trying new opportunities like extra work on TV shows. When acting didn’t take off, he turned his focus toward service and purpose, volunteering to speak with young people about drugs, gangs, and crime. His first talk at a youth club sparked something huge — schools began inviting him to share his story, leading to thousands of talks across the UK.

Paul describes how this new calling gave him “a spiritual experience,” replacing the high he once sought from drugs with the fulfillment of helping others. His talks gained recognition from major organizations like the London Fire Brigade, QPR, Reading FC, and other Premier League clubs, reaching millions of young people nationwide.

The episode also explores Paul’s personal redemption — reconciling with his mother and family, and an emotional reunion with his daughter after 15 years apart. His story comes full circle as he celebrates her 30th birthday, reflecting on the long journey from despair to peace, gratitude, and love.

Throughout, Paul and the hosts discuss the nature of addiction, the power of connection, and the importance of ongoing spiritual growth. Paul’s honesty about relapse, trauma, and perseverance serves as a raw and inspiring message: recovery is possible, and even the most broken lives can find purpose

Paul speaks with raw honesty about his early life growing up in East Ham as the eldest of four boys, his deep love for his father, and the devastating impact of losing him to alcoholism and family breakdown. That loss became the seed of a lifetime of pain and searching — first through friendships with older boys, then through alcohol and cannabis, and later through crime. By just thirteen, Paul was experimenting with LSD and experiencing terrifying hallucinations that landed him in hospital. Within a year, he was in a young offenders’ institution, where violence and humiliation at the hands of guards left him with a lifelong mistrust of authority.

As he grew older, Paul’s need for belonging drew him deeper into gang life. Violence, robbery, and the constant lure of danger became normal. By his late teens, he was drinking heavily, mixing with hardened criminals, and learning how to manipulate and survive on the streets. Then, at twenty-one, came the moment that changed everything: his first taste of heroin. What began as curiosity quickly became dependency. Within months, Paul went from an immaculately dressed young man in London nightclubs to a shadow of himself — homeless, desperate, and enslaved by addiction.

Over the years that followed, Paul’s life spiraled through prison cells, overdoses, and the brutal reality of life as a heroin and crack cocaine addict. He became one of the most prolific thieves in the country, stealing millions of pounds’ worth of goods to feed his habit. His body began to fail him — abscesses, infected veins, and open wounds that would never fully heal. Yet through it all, he continued chasing the same illusion of peace that had hooked him in that first hit.

Part One ends at the darkest point of Paul’s story — near death, spiritually broken, and completely lost. But it’s here that the seeds of change begin to take root, leading into the powerful redemption and recovery that unfold in Part Two.

Raw, emotional, and unflinchingly honest, this episode is a journey through trauma, addiction, and survival — a story that reminds us how far a person can fall, and how incredible it is when they find the strength to rise again.

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Louise opens up about her turbulent past, marked by childhood trauma, addiction, abusive relationships, and time spent in prison. From stealing as a young girl and seeking validation through destructive behaviors, to falling into substance abuse by age 13 and entering a relationship with a much older man, Louise’s early life was chaotic and painful. Her addiction spiraled from alcohol and cocaine use to crack cocaine, street prostitution, and repeated prison sentences.

Despite multiple failed attempts at rehab and fleeting periods of sobriety, Louise’s turning point came after a rapid methadone detox in prison and a placement at a 12-step treatment center. There, hearing another woman share a story that mirrored her own changed everything — sparking the desire to recover and breaking the obsession to use.

Louise’s recovery journey hasn’t been easy. She speaks candidly about working the 12 steps, confronting deep-rooted trauma (including sexual abuse by her father), and making amends. She highlights the transformative power of service work — from H&I shares in prisons to sponsoring newcomers — and the importance of community and connection in staying clean.

Now over two years and five months clean, Louise is rebuilding her life. She’s completed courses in bookkeeping and accounting, moved to Leicester to be with her supportive partner, and is planning a future full of possibility — including driving lessons and a holiday to Paris. She’s also courageously participating in legal action against a perpetrator to help prevent further harm to others.

Louise’s story is a testament to the power of recovery, perseverance, and the life-changing impact of one addict helping another. As Max puts it, “If you can do it, anyone can.”

The conversation explores:

• The difference between simply attending meetings and actively working the 12 steps.
• Why recovery is more than abstinence — it’s about transformation, honesty, and service.
• Personal stories of past birthdays clouded by addiction versus the joy and authenticity of living clean today.
• The mental health struggles men face, especially around silence, shame, and suicide — and the importance of talking openly.
• How milestones like turning 40 highlight the need for reflection, health, and building a future with purpose.

With honesty and vulnerability, Christopher and Max remind us that true freedom comes not just from putting down substances, but from doing the deeper work to live fully, without secrets, and in connection with others.

Alex opens up about growing up in a loving family but feeling different from an early age — plagued by anxiety, intense emotions, and a constant sense of not fitting in. As a teenager, alcohol and drugs quickly became his escape. Drawn to the thrill and sense of belonging in football culture, Alex found himself swept up in a lifestyle of pubs, violence, and chaos. What started as weekend drinking spiraled into daily substance use, destructive relationships, and eventually, serious legal trouble.

After a series of arrests, Alex served over two years in prison. While behind bars, he discovered meditation and fitness as temporary anchors, but the deep-rooted issues of addiction remained unresolved. Upon his release, Alex initially tried to rebuild his life, but without a recovery plan, he quickly fell back into old patterns of drinking and using. His turning point came after a devastating arrest outside a prison while visiting a friend — a moment that deeply impacted his fiancée, Leandra, and forced Alex to confront the truth about his addiction.

With Leandra’s support, Alex took his first brave steps toward recovery through therapy and a structured program called Aspirations. Eventually, he found fellowship meetings, where he slowly began to open up, connect with others, and take suggestions. It wasn’t easy — early recovery brought anger, resistance, and multiple relapses — but Alex kept coming back.

Now, at 18 months clean, Alex shares how service work, accountability, and a new community of friends have transformed his life. From crashing cars and toxic relationships to proposing to the love of his life after a recovery meeting, Alex’s story is a testament to the power of change, resilience, and hope.

This episode dives deep into what it really means to let go, rebuild, and find freedom from addiction. Whether you’re on your own recovery journey or supporting someone who is, Alex’s experience will inspire and remind you that no matter how dark it gets, a new life is always possible.

The conversation begins with Steve’s early life, growing up in a divided and often chaotic household. His parents’ divorce and a lack of love and stability left him anxious and withdrawn. As a teenager, Steve gravitated toward older friends and environments where alcohol and drugs were normalized, leading to his first experiences with cocaine and, shockingly, smoking crack by the age of 16.

Over time, Steve’s substance use spiraled, fueled by unresolved childhood trauma, grief over losing his beloved brother Michael, and the breakdown of his marriage to Michelle. What started as recreational use of cocaine evolved into a destructive addiction, marked by psychosis, self-harm, and total isolation. At his lowest point, Steve was consuming half-ounce quantities of drugs alone while his mental health collapsed.

The turning point came after a near-fatal incident driving under the influence and a welfare check that forced him to confront his situation. After reaching out for help, Steve attended his first recovery meeting, where he immediately felt a sense of belonging and hope. He has remained clean since that day.

Today, Steve is thriving in recovery. Through working the steps with his sponsor, attending meetings, and giving back to others, he has built a life of peace and purpose. He reflects on the transformation from living in fear, shame, and chaos to finding stability, gratitude, and self-awareness

As the conversation unfolds, both hosts open up about their darkest days — the lies, shame, and destruction caused by their addiction. Christopher shares his near-daily struggles during his final two years of using, highlighting the cycle of chaos and the breaking point that finally led him to rehab. Max talks about the fear of losing his family, the moment he realized how far he had fallen, and how that desperation pushed him toward recovery.

Listeners will hear deeply personal reflections on:

• The isolating and exhausting nature of addiction
• The transformative power of recovery and spiritual awakening
• Learning to sit with emotions without needing to escape
• The importance of honesty, community, and consistent action through meetings
• How family relationships can be rebuilt through trust and change

The episode closes with a message of hope and practical advice for newcomers or anyone struggling: attend meetings, keep showing up, and don’t give up after just one attempt. Christopher and Max remind us that while addiction is a killer, recovery is possible — and life on the other side can be filled with love, purpose, and freedom.

Through the 12-step program and unwavering support from others in recovery, Dean found freedom and a new way of living. Now over ten years clean, Dean reflects on the power of surrender, the importance of service, and his evolving relationship with faith and spirituality.

This episode is a testament to the strength of the human spirit and a reminder that no matter how far gone you feel, recovery is possible—one day at a time.

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Addicted to amphetamines by his own mother at just 13, Luke grew up in a world of drugs, violence, and instability. He opens up about enduring abuse, falling into crime, serving time in prison, and how addiction consumed his life for years.

Luke shares the pivotal moments that forced him to confront his destructive path—from a brutal attack by dealers to the devastating loss of a loved one—and how recovery finally gave him the strength to rebuild.

Now over ten months clean, Luke reflects on the transformation that has brought him peace, purpose, and hope for the future.

This is a raw, honest conversation about pain, resilience, and the power of recovery.

Daryl opens up about living with autism, ADHD, and dyslexia, which made social situations and school life especially difficult. He recalls feeling uncomfortable in his own skin from an early age, masking insecurities by being the class clown, and later finding escape in raves, ecstasy, speed, and cocaine. Drugs temporarily quieted his restless mind but quickly spiraled into paranoia, toxic relationships, and destructive cycles that cost him family, businesses, and ultimately his sense of self.

He speaks candidly about the selfishness of addiction—missing key family moments, naming his son after cocaine, and pawning his late father’s jewelry to fund his habit. These painful memories highlight how unmanageable his life had become.

The turning point came in 2019, when he finally walked into a 12-step meeting. Although terrified, he found the fellowship, a sponsor, and the structure of recovery. Today, Daryl has over six years clean, has worked through the steps, and maintains a daily spiritual routine of prayer and gratitude.

Now, his passion lies in music and DJing. Sober, he has rediscovered his love for performing, producing, and playing in clubs across London, Spain, and even Ibiza. He describes being behind the decks as his purest form of peace and meditation.

This episode is a powerful testament to resilience, honesty, and the transformation possible through recovery. Daryl’s story reminds listeners that while addiction isolates, recovery reconnects us with who we truly are—and with life itself.

From a spontaneous invitation to the podcast to a moving reflection on his 18 months of solid recovery, Ben’s story highlights how addiction isn't always about substances—it’s about control, fear, shame, and self-worth. Together, the trio dive into the challenges of maintaining emotional sobriety, the danger of spiritual complacency, and the transformative power of surrender.

This episode is an honest look at what recovery really looks like: messy, beautiful, and always evolving. Whether you’re new to recovery, a loved one of someone struggling, or just curious about the reality behind addiction, this conversation offers insight, compassion, and hope.

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The conversation kicks off with Darren reflecting on the deep emotional impact of reaching 15 years clean. He shares feelings of overwhelming gratitude, humility, and astonishment that he's come so far, especially when he once believed sobriety was impossible.

Throughout the episode, Darren recounts critical turning points in his recovery, including:

• A moment of grace when a stranger gave his wife £10 to get him to a drug service—what he calls the “butterfly effect” that started his journey.
• The internal battles he faced not in using, but in trying to stay clean and confront life without drugs.
• The profound impact of losing his sponsor and later his mother—and how he stayed clean and present through grief by leaning into the fellowship and continuing to serve others.

A major theme of the episode is service. Darren is known for his relentless commitment to sponsoring others, often juggling up to 10 sponsees across the world. He shares his philosophy on working with relapsers, the importance of patience and presence, and why he never gives up on anyone.

The episode also dives into Darren’s daily recovery routine:

• Morning prayer and meditation
• Weekly Step 10 inventories
• Continuous service and sponsorship
• Seeking and offering support through lived experience

Darren and the hosts reflect on the power of connection, the importance of being visible in recovery, and how moments of vulnerability—like Darren sharing openly during his mother’s passing—can become beacons of hope for others.

The conversation is filled with warmth, wisdom, and reminders of why clean time, no matter the length, is sacred. Darren’s humility and heart shine as he says: “I’m only doing what was given to me.”

Whether you're new to recovery, supporting someone who is, or deep into your journey, this episode is a testament to the transformative power of recovery, fellowship, and love in action.

Listeners will hear raw, unfiltered truths about addiction, the importance of spiritual growth in recovery, and why Gavin believes healing must happen on three levels: with God, yourself, and others. He shares how he went from IV drug use and homelessness to leading a national recovery movement and being asked to become a church leader.

This is an episode about hope, purpose, and the transformative power of recovery—wherever you are on your journey.

Anthea opens up about her early life, the emotional impact of fractured family dynamics, and how trauma shaped her path. She shares harrowing experiences from teenage years marked by substance abuse and unstable living conditions, including the devastating loss of her first child to cot death—a tragedy that became a turning point in her spiral into addiction.

With raw honesty and heartfelt emotion, Anthea talks about living on the streets, encounters with the criminal justice system, and ultimately, the moment she knew something had to change. She walks us through her transformative journey into recovery, the miracle of reconnecting with her children, and the strength she’s found through fellowship and support.

This episode is a testament to the power of recovery, the beauty of redemption, and the unbreakable human spirit. Whether you're in recovery, know someone who is, or are simply drawn to real stories of hope and transformation—this one will stay with you.

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What starts with a brave Instagram message to Christopher becomes a life-changing journey of healing, connection, and service. Stacey opens up with raw honesty about his early struggles, the traumatic experiences that shaped his addiction, and the moment he decided he could no longer run from the truth. From daily drug use and family heartbreak to 447 days clean, Stacey's story is a powerful reminder of the transformative potential of recovery.

The trio explores the emotional weight of childhood trauma, the misconceptions surrounding recovery meetings, and the crucial role of community and vulnerability in healing. With moments of laughter, insight, and real-talk about navigating life clean, this episode is as heartbreaking as it is hopeful.

If you or someone you know is struggling, this conversation may be the encouragement they need to reach out.

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Chris and Max open up with raw honesty. Max reflects on the pain he caused his wife and family during active addiction, and how his recovery journey helped him regain trust and deepen the love that had once been broken. Chris shares how his addiction led him to hurt those closest to him, and how shame, guilt, and the need for change pushed him to finally seek help and start rebuilding his life. They speak candidly about the realities of being absent fathers and broken sons, and how consistency, service, and spiritual growth have helped them become dependable, loving partners, parents, and friends.

This episode also explores the emotional toll of manipulation and dishonesty, the importance of walking away from unhealthy relationships, and the joy of forging meaningful connections within sober communities. Chris and Max reflect on the strength of their friendship and the unique bonds formed in recovery, underlining the importance of community, accountability, and mutual support.

It’s a moving and relatable conversation that reminds listeners that no relationship is beyond repair. With time, honest action, and a willingness to grow, healing is not only possible—it’s transformative.

David shares his brutally honest account of falling in love with the disconnection ketamine offered, the physical and mental toll it took, and the moment he finally surrendered. His story is a powerful reminder that addiction can strike at any age — but so can recovery.

Dave opens up about his upbringing in a loving but emotionally detached household, his early experiences with drugs, and how his high-octane lifestyle spiraled out of control. From a successful career in the City, rubbing shoulders with the elite and dating royalty, to living in his car while battling crack and heroin addiction, Dave’s story is both gripping and humbling.

Listeners will hear about the critical turning points in Dave’s life — including a failed suicide attempt, interventions from loved ones, and his eventual commitment to recovery through the 12-step program. He discusses the transformative power of getting a sponsor, working the steps, and finding real connection in the recovery community.

With humour, raw honesty, and heartfelt gratitude, Dave reflects on his 16 months clean and the daily practices that keep him grounded today. This episode is a testament to the miracles that can happen when we surrender and embrace recovery.

But this episode is about more than suffering—it's about transformation. Charlotte takes us through the moment she found hope through the 12-step program, the daily practices that keep her grounded, and how connection, community, and a higher power have helped her rebuild a life she once thought was beyond saving.

Whether you're in recovery, supporting someone who is, or simply seeking inspiration, Charlotte’s story is a must-listen. It’s a testament to the human spirit and the life-saving power of recovery.

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Dan reflects on a difficult childhood marked by emotional discomfort, parental separation, and a persistent feeling of being on the outside looking in. Even from a young age, he felt fear, rejection, and a lack of belonging.

Introduced to ecstasy at just 12 years old while in care, Dan describes the initial relief it brought him — the silence of fear and anxiety — and how this instant escape became his "medication" of choice.

He candidly recounts being bounced through children’s homes, a secure unit, and juvenile prisons, gradually adopting a hardened persona that masked his internal pain. The story paints a sobering picture of how institutional settings shaped his identity.

Dan talks openly about committing robberies, bullying, manipulating loved ones, and living with overwhelming guilt and shame. One particularly harrowing moment includes self-inflicted injuries to deceive his family for drug money — a stark illustration of addiction’s depths.

A moment of clarity comes during a stint in solitary confinement, where Dan breaks down emotionally and begins to accept that he needs help. This turning point, sparked by the echo of a support group’s moment of silence, sets him on the path to recovery.

Dan’s journey through rehab, Narcotics Anonymous, and therapy helped him begin rebuilding his life. He shares what it’s like to come out of prison and into recovery, experiencing community, kindness, and eventually giving back through service.

Despite periods of clean time — even working in addiction services — Dan experienced multiple relapses, underscoring how fragile recovery can be without consistent effort. He reflects honestly on the mistakes that led him back to using and the lessons those experiences taught him.

Now five months clean at the time of recording, Dan emphasises the importance of staying connected, attending meetings, and practising the principles of recovery daily. His story is one of perseverance, self-awareness, and hope.

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Kaitlin reflects on a childhood marked by instability, emotional neglect, and early signs of addictive behaviours such as escapism and secretive eating. As a teenager, she turned to alcohol and cannabis to self-soothe, which quickly led to heavier drug use and a progressive addiction that continued into adulthood. Despite becoming a mother, her dependency deepened, culminating in physical and emotional breakdowns, paranoia, and brushes with death. At one stage, she was even told she might never walk again.

Her turning point came in the form of a spiritual epiphany — a moment of clarity that led her to seek support through a 12-step fellowship. Kaitlin speaks openly about the initial difficulties of recovery, particularly detaching from cannabis, which she describes as her hardest substance to quit. She also reflects on the grief she experienced in letting go of her old lifestyle and the fear of losing her children, which had long kept her from seeking help.

Now 1,000 days sober, Kaitlin has found a sense of peace, stability, and renewed purpose. She is passionate about helping others, especially mothers who may be silently struggling with addiction. Through her social media channel, Sober as a Mother Focused, she shares honest insights, experiences, and support to challenge stigma and offer hope.

This episode is a moving reminder of the strength it takes to get clean, the importance of community and honesty in recovery, and the life-changing rewards of staying the course.

Sarah explains how ultra-processed foods are designed to be addictive, using combinations of sugar, fat and salt to override the body's natural signals. She draws parallels between food addiction and drug or alcohol dependency—highlighting the shame, secrecy and emotional pain that often drives compulsive behaviours.

As a teenager, Sarah was caught in the cycle of dieting and bingeing, influenced by damaging messages from the diet industry. By 25, she weighed nearly 22 stone and was warned by her GP that she might not live to 40. That moment pushed her to make a change, starting with a walk in the dark to avoid being seen.

Rather than extreme diets, Sarah focused on sustainable habits—swapping sugary drinks for water, cooking at home, and walking daily. These small steps eventually led to a 12-stone weight loss, improved mental clarity and the return of her overall health.

Crucially, Sarah began working on her emotional wellbeing. Through books like You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay, she learned to confront her past, build self-worth, and introduce healthy boundaries. She now helps others through her support group, Step by Step with Sarah Jane, offering guidance rooted in lived experience.

The hosts explore shared themes of addiction, stigma, and recovery. They discuss the limitations of NHS support and how social media and marketing create confusion around food and health. Sarah recommends practical tools like the Yucca app and the book Ultra-Processed People by Dr Chris van Tulleken to help people make more informed choices.

Sarah’s message is clear: change is possible with consistency, compassion and community. Her story is not just about weight loss, but healing—physically, mentally and emotionally.

Working in high-pressure construction roles, Nick’s substance use intensified. Despite multiple attempts to moderate or stop, it was not until a pivotal moment of self-realisation that he chose to seek change. He discusses the limitations of mere abstinence and the significant impact of engaging with a structured recovery program.

Nick outlines the transformative role of community, consistency, and spiritual growth in sustaining long-term recovery. He credits service, step work, and regular meetings as key elements of his progress and now dedicates time to helping others.

This episode provides a candid account of the realities of addiction and offers clear insight into the practical steps and mindset required for lasting recovery.

Sid’s story is marked by profound experiences — including the trauma of alopecia at a young age, years lost to heroin addiction, and time spent in both youth and adult prisons. He speaks openly about the insanity and devastation caused by his drug use, relationships that suffered, and the deep shame he carried.

However, the turning point came when Sid had a spiritual awakening while serving time. Introduced to faith through a prison chaplain, Sid began to reconnect with the values his parents instilled in him. He shares how this encounter sparked a transformation, eventually leading him to Bible college, a new life with his wife, and a calling to become a pastor.

The conversation also touches on the addictive design of modern life — from smartphones to fast food — and the importance of long-term gratification, self-awareness, and community in recovery. Sid’s testimony illustrates that while the road is long and messy, real change is possible with honesty, connection, and spiritual grounding.

A moving reminder that recovery isn’t linear — but it is worth it.

Raph’s journey illustrates how deeply family dynamics, childhood experiences, and environmental triggers can shape a person’s path. What started as a way to numb the pain soon became a dangerous lifestyle with serious consequences. His story serves as a reminder that addiction doesn’t discriminate and can escalate faster than expected. It was only after hitting rock bottom—facing the full weight of his decisions and their consequences—that Raph found the strength to begin again.

Recovery, as Raph explains, is not a one-time event but a continuous, evolving process. He credits his transformation to the unwavering support of a recovery community, the commitment to personal growth, and the powerful sense of purpose he discovered through serving others. Today, Raph not only lives free from addiction but also helps others who are walking the same path he once did. His story is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the healing power of connection, compassion, and change.

Throughout the episode, Raph’s raw honesty is captured in unforgettable sound bites such as, “I was getting beats every night,” “I was eating out of dustbins,” and “I promised my nan I'm not gonna smoke no more.” His words resonate deeply, painting a vivid picture of suffering, survival, and ultimately, redemption.

He reflects on the struggles of working in education while secretly battling addiction, repeated hospital admissions, and the painful descent into homelessness, life-threatening health conditions, and profound isolation.

However, Shamil’s story is ultimately one of hope and redemption. Through full surrender, deep spiritual work, and complete commitment to the 12-Step programme, he found a new way to live. Now, with over two and a half years' sobriety, Shamil works in the same hospital where he was once a patient, helping others on their journey to recovery.

This episode is filled with powerful insights about emotional healing, the importance of honesty, and the ongoing need for consistency, humility, and spiritual maintenance. Shamil’s authenticity and humility shine as he reminds listeners that "everywhere I go, I take God with me" — a moving testament to living a sober life, one day at a time.

The conversation starts with a nostalgic reflection as Alex and Max realise they once attended the same school — both unaware at the time that beneath the surface, they were already battling the early signs of addiction. Alex shares his story openly, tracing the roots of his compulsive gambling back to childhood, shaped by family separation, emotional instability, and early exposure to betting through his father’s habits.

Alex’s journey is marked by emotional vulnerability, financial ruin, and the manipulation that so often accompanies addiction. He speaks candidly about his pattern of deception, the toxic cycle of winning and chasing losses, and the crushing shame that kept him isolated for years. His story highlights the often invisible nature of gambling addiction — one that doesn’t always carry the visible signs of other dependencies but is just as destructive.

Throughout the conversation, Max and Chris reflect on the shared emotional struggles underlying addiction — the inner void, the hunger for validation, and the disconnect between how they appeared to the world and how they felt inside. Alex recounts the moments where addiction had him trapped, including the extraordinary highs and lows of gambling away over £120,000 in a single weekend, and the devastating impact this had on his relationships, self-worth and mental health.

Despite the setbacks, Alex also shares how he has begun rebuilding his life. He talks about finding strength through community, his experiences in rehabilitation, and the importance of peer support. Now four months clean — the longest since his addiction began — Alex has also founded Walking and Talking, a safe and non-judgemental group for those struggling with gambling, offering connection and support through simple conversation and companionship.

The episode closes on an uplifting note, with Max and Chris emphasising the importance of fellowship, recovery programmes, self-reflection, and honest conversation. Together, they highlight that addiction is about far more than substances or behaviours — it’s about the internal battles and emotional wounds we try to numb — and that lasting recovery is possible through connection, action, and community.

In an open and heartfelt conversation, Michelle reflects on her rise to fame, her early life growing up in Newcastle, and the pressures of the music industry that quietly fed into her struggle with addiction. Despite having no family history of addiction, Michelle speaks candidly about always feeling “different” as a child, and how performing became her first emotional escape long before substances entered the picture.

The trio explore the complex path from social drinking and partying at the height of Liberty X’s success, to the slow and painful progression into daily dependence. Michelle bravely recounts her battles with alcohol and how her early menopause after a hysterectomy acted as a turning point in her descent into addiction. She discusses the devastating impact it had on her relationships, her health, and her self-worth — including hospital visits where doctors warned her she would not survive if she continued drinking.

Michelle opens up about her rock bottom moment, the pivotal support from her husband, close friends like Katie Price, and her journey into rehab during the COVID-19 pandemic. She shares the emotional experience of receiving letters from loved ones during treatment, which forced her to confront the full scope of her addiction and the damage it had caused.

Throughout the conversation, Michelle also highlights the ongoing importance of fellowship meetings, spiritual growth, and daily routines that sustain her sobriety. She now uses her platform to break the stigma around addiction, offering hope and inspiration to others who are struggling.

This is a raw, honest, and uplifting episode about resilience, recovery, and the life-changing gift of living fully present — just in time for Michelle to celebrate her incredible four-year sobriety anniversary.

Marie shares how clean time has become a cornerstone of her accountability and personal growth, emphasising that staying sober is about more than simply abstaining from substances—it's about healing emotionally and mentally. She reflects on the profound impact of unresolved trauma from her early life, and how it fed into the patterns of her addiction. From a young age, Marie felt different and disconnected, leading her to seek comfort in destructive behaviours, including food and substance abuse.

Her story unfolds with powerful moments of hardship, from early motherhood and turbulent relationships to the devastating consequences of addiction. Yet within that darkness, Marie found a turning point—a moment of clarity that propelled her towards recovery. Through multiple cycles of relapse and surrender, she began building a new life rooted in self-awareness, community, and service.

Marie speaks candidly about the importance of self-soothing and emotional regulation in recovery, and how learning to face discomfort without escape was transformative. She also discusses the healing power of making amends and rebuilding broken relationships, a process that brought deeper understanding and peace into her life.

Today, Marie dedicates her life to supporting women trapped in cycles of street prostitution and addiction, using her own journey as a beacon of hope. Her work through her charity not only helps others, but continues to ground her own recovery, giving her purpose and fulfilment. This episode is a powerful reminder that recovery is not a destination—it’s a lifelong journey of self-discovery, connection, and giving back.

A special highlight of this episode is Max’s incredible milestone—six years of clean time. He opens up about his journey, the struggles he has faced, and the lessons that have shaped him along the way. His story is a raw and inspiring reminder that real transformation happens one day at a time. The hosts reflect on the power of personal milestones and why celebrating progress, no matter how small, is essential to long-term success.

The conversation is filled with real-life insights and practical strategies to stay motivated without feeling overwhelmed. Rather than getting lost in the pressure of long-term goals, they discuss how small, consistent actions can create lasting change. With personal stories, humour, and heartfelt reflections, this episode is both inspiring and deeply relatable.

If you're looking for motivation, fresh perspectives, or simple yet powerful ways to make each day count, this is an episode you won’t want to miss. Tune in and discover how embracing “just for today” can shift your mindset and transform your life.

Raymond has been sharing his story in UK and US prisons for over 13 years, emphasizing the importance of hope and transformation. He discusses the impact of his visits, how prisoners react to his Brooklyn accent, and the power of seeing someone who once walked their path now living a fulfilling life in recovery. He stresses that carrying the message to those in dark places is his most meaningful service work.

The role of service in recovery is a central theme in this episode. Raymond emphasizes the importance of H&I (Hospitals & Institutions) service, recalling how he first heard the message of recovery in a similar setting. He encourages consistent service, noting that people often stop doing what worked for them once they get clean, which can lead to relapse. The conversation highlights the significance of simple service commitments, like making coffee at meetings, and how they contribute to stability and responsibility.

Raymond shares his childhood struggles, growing up in Brooklyn as a Nuyorican with a single mother and experiencing deep-seated trauma, including his mother’s grief over losing a child and his own battle with a congenital heart disease. He talks about the emotional pain of an absent father and how early feelings of shame, abandonment, and separation anxiety planted the seeds for addiction. Reflecting on recovery, he discusses how step work helped him uncover and address these underlying wounds.

His addiction began early, starting with alcohol at the age of five and progressing to marijuana by age ten. By 13, he was using cocaine, and at 15, he was smoking crack. He describes how his life quickly spiraled, leading him to crime, violence, and a complete loss of control. His turning point came at 17, when he heard an H&I speaker share the message of recovery, sparking hope and change. Since getting clean, he has dedicated his life to helping others, particularly those who are still suffering in jails and institutions.

Raymond discusses the necessity of a spiritual solution in recovery, sharing that many people relapse because they neglect their spiritual growth. He explains that addiction isn’t just about substances—it’s a disease that affects the mind, body, and soul. The conversation highlights the importance of humility, continued learning, and staying connected to recovery principles.

This episode serves as a powerful reminder of the life-changing potential of recovery. Raymond’s story is one of transformation, resilience, and service, making it an inspiring listen for anyone struggling with addiction or working in the recovery space.

Tune in to Addicted to Recovery for more raw and real conversations about the journey to sobriety.

Now three years clean, Lorraine reflects on the transformation that recovery has brought to her life. She shares insights into the power of the NA and AA fellowships, the importance of service and sponsorship, and how her connection to a higher power helped her rebuild. With humor, honesty, and deep wisdom, Lorraine’s story is a testament to the miracles of recovery.

Tune in for an inspiring conversation filled with hope, resilience, and the message that no matter how far gone you feel, there is always a way back.

A key theme that emerges is the contrast between material success and inner fulfilment. The hosts and Terry discuss how external achievements, wealth, and recognition often fail to fill the void left by addiction. Instead, true healing comes from vulnerability, self-acceptance, and meaningful relationships. They highlight the common misconception that personal worth is tied to accomplishments, stressing that addiction is frequently rooted in a deep need for validation and love. By confronting these emotional wounds, individuals in recovery can begin to build a more fulfilling and authentic life.

Throughout the discussion, the importance of vulnerability is underscored as a crucial factor in overcoming the stigma of addiction. By openly sharing struggles, those in recovery can break down barriers, foster deeper connections, and challenge the shame often associated with substance use. The episode also touches on the reality that relapse can be part of the recovery process, but it does not define a person’s journey. Rather than viewing it as failure, relapse can be an opportunity for learning and growth.

Another critical aspect of the conversation is the role of fantasy and escapism as coping mechanisms for deeper emotional pain. Terry reflects on the ways in which acting and creative expression served as outlets, sometimes masking unresolved issues. The discussion extends to food addiction and bulimia, illustrating how addictive behaviours can manifest in various forms beyond substance abuse. Through these stories, the episode highlights the diverse paths addiction can take and the necessity of addressing its underlying causes.

The conversation also delves into the power of spirituality in recovery, emphasising that while spirituality can be deeply personal, it does not have to be tied to religion. Maintaining a sense of spiritual connection—whether through mindfulness, meditation, or a higher power—can help individuals stay grounded and present in their healing journey. Recovery, as the hosts and Terry discuss, is about embracing the present moment, accepting oneself fully, and continuously working towards growth.

Ultimately, this episode serves as a reminder that healing is possible with the right support and mindset. Through candid reflections and powerful insights, Christopher, Max, and Terry offer listeners a deeper understanding of addiction and the transformative potential of recovery. Whether struggling with addiction personally or supporting a loved one, this episode reinforces the message that no one has to navigate this journey alone.

Throughout the discussion, Adam reflects on the uncomfortable but necessary process of personal growth, noting how facing difficult emotions has been essential to his recovery. He shares how moving to London marked a continuation of his struggles, but also set the stage for a turning point in his life. A key moment in Adam’s journey was a heart-wrenching confrontation with his mother, whose love and concern forced him to acknowledge the reality of his situation. He discusses the cycle of addiction, including the concept of cross addiction—how he justified replacing one substance with another—and the desperate moments that eventually led him to rehab.

The latter half of the episode shifts focus to the hope and transformation that come with recovery. Adam describes his experience in rehab as a new beginning, a space where he could finally confront his past and start rebuilding his life. He speaks candidly about the challenges of life after rehab, acknowledging that recovery is an ongoing process filled with setbacks but also immense growth. One of the most profound aspects of his journey has been the power of fellowship—sharing his story, embracing support from others in recovery, and finding purpose through fatherhood. His experience serves as a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the possibility of change, reinforcing the message that if he can do it, anyone can.

Suzanne shares her story of addiction, shaped by childhood trauma and the devastating loss of her mother, and reflects on how these experiences led her down the path of substance use. She discusses the profound impact of connection in recovery, particularly for women, and how finding a supportive fellowship has been instrumental in her healing.

The conversation highlights the vital role of sponsorship and service, emphasising how helping others can, in turn, strengthen one's own recovery. Suzanne and the hosts explore the importance of self-awareness, recognising triggers, and maintaining daily spiritual practices to sustain long-term sobriety.

They reaffirm that recovery is an ongoing process, requiring consistent effort, reflection, and a commitment to personal growth. Most importantly, they remind listeners that a fulfilling, substance-free life is not only possible but deeply rewarding when built on connection, service, and resilience.

The discussion delves into the importance of balance in recovery, avoiding emotional extremes, and recognising self-centredness as a core issue in addiction. They also tackle the reality of relapse—not as a failure, but as an opportunity for deeper commitment and growth. Surrendering to the process and embracing honesty in meetings are highlighted as essential steps towards healing.

Chris and Max reflect on the impact of their podcast, sharing powerful stories from listeners who have found hope and support through their conversations. They remind us that recovery is an ongoing journey requiring effort, self-awareness, and a strong support system.

Tune in for an honest and heartfelt conversation about addiction, healing, and the power of connection.

Charlie opens up about his own struggles, sharing his darkest moments, the turning point that led him to seek help, and the transformative journey of recovery. He reflects on confronting his past, making amends, and finding purpose in helping others. Through raw honesty and emotion, this conversation sheds light on the complexities of addiction and the hope that comes with healing.

In this episode, DJ MAK 10 opens up about the early influences that led him to substance use, the pivotal moment when he realised he needed help, and how the support of a fellowship became a cornerstone in his recovery. Sharing his journey through rehab and the challenges he still faces, he highlights the importance of self-awareness, avoiding triggers, and staying committed to the ongoing effort required for a sober life.

Listeners will hear how sobriety has transformed DJ MAK 10’s creativity and career, and how it has allowed him to be truly present for his loved ones. The discussion touches on themes of surrendering to help, breaking free from fear and validation tied to substances, and the hope that recovery is possible—even in high-pressure environments like the music scene.

This episode is a testament to the transformative power of recovery and a reminder that, with the right support and effort, a fulfilling and sober life is within reach.

The discussion emphasises the importance of behavioural change in recovery, highlighting that it requires more than just apologies. Genuine actions that rebuild trust and relationships are essential for true growth. Recovery is not a one-time event but an ongoing journey, where consistent self-reflection and personal development play a vital role in maintaining progress. Letting go of resentment and embracing forgiveness is also key, as it opens the door to healing not only for oneself but also for those affected.

Guest Darren shares an inspiring account of his journey through addiction recovery. He explains how honesty, spirituality, and fellowship became pillars of his transformation. Reflecting on the challenges he faced, Darren delves into the significance of prayer and meditation as tools for growth and self-discovery. He also highlights the power of sharing experiences with others, fostering connection, and planting seeds of hope in those on a similar path.

The episode culminates in a powerful realisation: recovery is a lifelong process of self-discovery, connection, and purposeful living. By helping others and embracing personal growth, individuals can achieve a profound shift in perspective and a renewed sense of purpose.

This episode is a must-listen for anyone navigating recovery or supporting a loved one on the journey. It’s filled with actionable insights, heartfelt stories, and a message of hope and resilience.

The journey begins with Step One, where the crucial realisation of powerlessness over addiction and the unmanageability of life lays the foundation for change. Darren shares his thoughts on the hidden struggles of functioning addicts and the pivotal moment of acknowledging the need for help.

In Step Two, we discuss the importance of believing in a higher power, which can restore a sense of sanity and hope. Building on this, Step Three emphasises the necessity of turning one’s will and life over to this higher power, fostering trust and surrender.

Moving deeper, we explore Step Four, a moral inventory process that requires honesty and introspection. While this step can be an emotional rollercoaster, it is also a critical moment for identifying personal flaws and uncovering the roots of dysfunction. Darren shares his own experiences of tackling this challenging yet rewarding step. This is followed by Step Five, which highlights the liberating act of sharing our wrongs with others, breaking the chains of isolation.

The podcast continues by exploring Steps Six and Seven, which focus on acknowledging character defects and humbly asking for help to address them. These steps remind us that imperfection is a shared human experience and that humility is a strength, not a weakness.

Finally, we discuss the role of service in recovery. Helping others not only enhances personal growth but also underscores the importance of community and connection in the healing process. The episode concludes by affirming that dysfunction is a common aspect of life, extending beyond addiction, and that recovery is a journey of continuous action, self-awareness, and service.

Whether you're navigating recovery or seeking to understand the transformative power of the 12 steps, this episode—featuring Darren S's heartfelt insights—offers practical wisdom and inspiring reflections to guide listeners.

Albion opens up about the emotional awareness that sobriety has brought into his life, including confronting feelings of envy, jealousy, and other defects of character. He reflects on how recovery has reshaped his relationships, making open communication and authenticity essential tools for connection. The trio also discusses parenting in recovery, emphasising both the struggles and the deep rewards of being a present and engaged parent.

Throughout the episode, Chris, Max, and Albion explore the importance of fellowship and how gratitude can be a transformative force in combating negative emotions. Albion’s insights highlight how embracing vulnerability can lead to deeper connections and a more balanced life.

This episode is a candid, inspiring look at the ongoing work and self-discovery that define a life of sobriety. It’s a testament to the power of recovery to transform not just the individual but the relationships and fellowship around them.

The conversation explores the deeply personal nature of healing, touching on themes like the significance of fellowship, the courage found in vulnerability, and the ongoing work required for personal growth. Listeners will hear about the role of support groups, the importance of honesty, and how understanding mental health conditions like ADHD can be instrumental in recovery.

Through his story, Danny reminds us that recovery is a lifelong commitment, requiring daily effort, self-awareness, and meaningful connections with others. This episode is a heartfelt testament to the power of resilience and the importance of building a supportive fellowship on the path to healing.

Join Chris and Max for this inspiring discussion that underscores the message: recovery is not just a destination—it's an ongoing journey.

Drawing on their personal experiences with addiction at Christmastime, Christopher and Max share practical strategies for maintaining recovery, from building new, alcohol-free traditions to staying grounded. They also delve into the vital role of fellowship and offer advice on helping others who may be struggling during this festive yet often challenging period.

Dean sheds light on how addiction often roots itself in family dynamics and the absence of nurturing environments. By understanding the science behind addiction, individuals can gain valuable insights that help shape their recovery journey.

One of the key takeaways is the necessity of surrendering to the process—accepting help and trusting the path to healing. Dean also draws attention to the often-overlooked struggle of food addiction, highlighting its parallels to substance addiction.

Throughout the conversation, we emphasise the vital role of a strong fellowship. From personal growth that emerges through adversity to the fellowship that offers belonging and shared understanding, fellowship stands as a cornerstone of recovery.

Dean reflects on how examining past experiences provides clarity for current behaviours, fostering self-awareness and growth. Ultimately, the episode concludes with an inspiring message: love and connection are not just crucial for recovery—they are essential for building a fulfilling and meaningful life.

Tune in to Episode 47 for an honest, heartfelt, and enlightening discussion about what it takes to reclaim your life and thrive in recovery.

The discussion touches on formative childhood experiences, his early encounters with substances, and the challenges of staying sober. Darren also opens up about coping with loss and grief, including the profound impact of losing his parents, and how recovery has equipped him to face these emotions.

This episode highlights the critical role of fellowship, spirituality, and personal growth in sustaining recovery. Through Darren’s story, the podcast underscores the strength and hope found in shared experiences, offering inspiration for anyone on the journey of healing.

In this episode of Addicted to Recovery, hosts Chris and Max have a heartfelt conversation with Irene, who courageously shares her journey through addiction, trauma, and recovery. Irene opens up about her early life shaped by abuse, her struggles with substance use, and the defining moments that inspired her to seek help. The discussion underscores the vital role of fellowship, support, and personal growth in the recovery process, along with the life-changing impact of finding a sponsor and building connections with others who have faced similar challenges. Irene's story is a powerful testament to resilience and the ability to rebuild a life after hardship.

We explore the strength found in emotional vulnerability, which deepens connections and supports healing. The critical role of family support is emphasised, as it offers love and understanding during tough times. Childhood experiences are examined as a window into early signs of addiction, underscoring the importance of awareness and prevention.

The conversation delves into the emotional voids, loss, and grief that often lead to unhealthy coping mechanisms, emphasising the necessity of emotional processing. They also discuss how substance use can escalate, affecting every area of life, and the transformative power of seeking help as a turning point in recovery.

Finally, the episode celebrates the profound changes that come with building a new life in recovery—embracing transformation, finding purpose, and forming meaningful community connections. This heartfelt episode shines a light on resilience, connection, and the life-changing potential of recovery.

Vanessa also reflects on her ongoing experiences, offering a candid look into the challenges and triumphs of recovery. She highlights the value of support programs, the transformative role of mentorship, and the importance of celebrating milestones. With themes of self-discovery, spirituality, and gratitude, this episode provides a heartfelt message about embracing the journey of recovery and finding strength in every step.

Through Jack’s recovery journey, we see that healing is ongoing and requires consistent support and action. Vulnerability plays a central role, not only in his personal healing but also in his ability to connect with and support others facing similar struggles. This episode emphasizes the importance of addressing the deeper issues that fuel addiction and shines a light on how finding purpose in recovery can inspire a path to helping others. Jack’s experience serves as a reminder of the complexities of addiction and the power of awareness, connection, and purpose in the journey toward recovery.

They explore the highs and lows of parenting, maintaining balance, and the value of mindfulness practices. Chris shares personal stories about living with ADHD, managing physical health, and the profound impact of prayer and meditation on his recovery.

They both reflect on the importance of daily rituals, the strength found in connecting with a higher power, and the ripple effects of addiction, including the tragic story of Liam Payne.

Throughout, they highlight the ongoing journey of self-improvement and the need for self-compassion.

Together, they explore the deeply personal journey of recovery, discussing everything from the lasting impact of childhood trauma to the crucial role of exercise and community support in maintaining sobriety.

Brendon shares his powerful story, opening up about his battle with addiction, the turning points that led him to seek help, and the ongoing challenges he continues to face. He reflects on his rediscovery during lockdown, when a boxing gym became a key part of his healing process. By following the steps of recovery and addressing the obsession and allergy linked to addiction, Brendon found his way forward.

The conversation highlights the importance of physical health in recovery, with diet and exercise playing major roles. They also discuss the significance of building supportive relationships and setting meaningful goals. Reflecting on their journeys, Brendon and the hosts emphasise the critical role of community and connection in overcoming addiction, fostering personal growth, self-acceptance, and long-term sobriety.

Tune in for an inspiring discussion on resilience, healing, and the transformative power of recovery.

They explore Shireen's journey from addiction to recovery, discussing the pivotal moments that led her to seek help, the struggles she faced, and the cultural influences that shaped her experiences.

The conversation delves into the importance of making amends, the ongoing challenges of managing recovery, and the profound changes that come with sobriety. Shireen shares her insights on finding joy in life beyond substances and the support she has received from her community.

This episode serves as a powerful reminder of the resilience of the human spirit and the possibility of transformation through recovery.

Together, they delve into the role of friendship, the vital connection between faith and action in the recovery process, and how childhood experiences can shape addiction. JD opens up about his personal battle with addiction, his time living on the streets, and the profound changes that recovery has brought to his life.

The episode highlights the importance of support systems, making amends, and the continual journey of healing and self-improvement.

They share personal stories of struggle, reflecting on how recovery has transformed their lives, relationships, and family dynamics.

The discussion highlights the role of emotions in addiction and the importance of connection, support, and being present for loved ones.

Tune in for an inspiring and honest exploration of healing, growth, and the life-changing power of recovery.

This is a real, raw discussion about the ongoing challenges of recovery, the importance of honesty, and finding hope in the darkest moments.

We’re proud to share Jason’s story — trust us, you won’t want to miss it!

In honor of 'Recovery Month,' they share personal stories highlighting the transformative power of spreading the message of recovery and the profound impact it can have on someone's life.

To wrap up the episode, they tackle listeners' questions, which take a humorous turn as they find themselves laughing about Bill Wilson’s bush!

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The conversation dives into themes of resilience, vulnerability, and the importance of dropping ego in the recovery process. Danny also reflects on the toughness of previous generations versus today’s, sharing insights on his experiences with various substances and the positive changes in his life, including a recent holiday.

Tune in for an honest and inspiring discussion that’s not to be missed!

They explore daily commitments, spiritual principles, and the power of morning routines, including insights from the "Just For Today" book and the value of gratitude lists.

Join them as they share personal stories that highlight the importance of taking recovery one day at a time, staying connected through morning texts, and the vital role of meetings and finding your home group.

They also discuss how to handle cravings and triggers, and the transformative impact of service in the recovery journey.

This conversation is all about building consistency, fostering personal growth, and embracing each day with purpose.

Don’t miss out on this insightful and inspiring discussion!

Tune in as Matt talks about the challenges of early sobriety, the importance of having a strong support network, and how being alone in his flat triggered his commitment to staying sober. He also dives into the motivation behind his sobriety and the pride he feels in his accomplishments.

This conversation also touches on the stigma surrounding addiction and why we need to have more open and honest discussions about it. Plus, Matt gives us a sneak peek into his podcast, where he’s creating a safe space for others to share their stories.

Don’t miss this inspiring episode! 🎧✨

Chris drops some wisdom on the art of surrendering control to a higher power. He talks about how breaking things down into small moments of surrender throughout the day has been a game-changer. When he messes up, he’s quick to make amends, and that shift in mindset—powered by gratitude—brings him back to a place of humility and appreciation.

Their convo is a reminder that staying on top of your game in recovery isn’t just important—it’s transformational.

Soul talks about the moment he realised he needed to change and his path to recovery. From rehab to aftercare, and overcoming resistance to Narcotics Anonymous (NA), his story is one of hope and transformation.

Tune in to hear about the challenges of rebuilding relationships, the impact of addiction on his family, and the importance of meetings, sponsorship, and service in maintaining sobriety. Soul’s story is a testament to personal growth, spiritual connection, and the power of giving back.

Listen now and be inspired by Soul's journey of recovery and redemption. Don't miss his touching story about his second sponsor and the importance of reaching out to those still struggling.

John's story is one of profound transformation and redemption. After losing his dad at an early age, he turned to drugs to numb his pain and cope with his emotions. This coping mechanism spiralled into a lifelong battle with addiction, marked by multiple relapses.

However, John's journey took a remarkable turn when he finally surrendered to his addiction and committed to taking his life back. Now, with two years of sobriety under his belt, he has embraced a new path as a born-again Christian. His life today is beyond his wildest dreams, characterised by hope, purpose, and fulfilment.

In a beautiful twist of fate, John has been offered a job at the very day clinic that played a crucial role in his recovery and helped him get off the streets a few years ago. Join us as we delve into John's inspiring story of overcoming adversity, finding faith, and giving back to the community that supported him during his darkest times.

Enjoy!

Mike opens up about his early life in a dysfunctional family, the excitement of crime and jail at a young age, and his experiences as a security guard for the rich and famous. From champagne and cocaine to losing all his possessions over a two-year period, Mike hit rock bottom.

His recovery journey began through a detox center in the West of England. He talks about the importance of spiritual principles, honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness, and how action is the key to uncovering the root cause of our illness.

Mike has broken the cycle and moved on with his life, now passing on to others what was freely given to him. An incredible man with an incredible message.

We hope you enjoy this episode.

Chris gets real about his addiction days, sharing stories of stealing and lying. He talks about the game-changing impact of Steps 8 and 9, focusing on making amends. His first amends story, making things right with a former employer, is a major highlight.

They also cover the struggle of unreciprocated amends and fixing family ties. Chris highlights the huge personal growth and positive vibes from living honestly and owning up to mistakes.

Tune in for an eye-opening convo with Chris and Max about the powerful journey of making amends in recovery.

Get ready for an inspiring and heartfelt episode as Max and Chris welcome Taner Hassan onto the podcast! 🚀 Dive deep with them into their powerful recovery journeys and discover how meetings and service have been game-changers in their lives.

🌟 Early Recovery Days & Overcoming Hurdles: Hear the trio recount the tough beginnings, the hurdles they smashed through, and the monumental personal growth they've experienced. They even take a nostalgic trip back to their childhoods, sharing how those early days shaped their paths.

🤣 Taner's Journey with Humor and Self-Acceptance: Taner lights up the conversation with his humor and raw honesty. Struggling with awkwardness and low self-esteem as a kid, he found solace in performing arts, where he could become anyone on stage.

🍷 From Substance Abuse to Sobriety: Taner's candid story of his descent into substance abuse, starting with early drinking and spiraling into drug addiction, paints a vivid picture of his darkest moments filled with paranoia and fear.

💪 The Power of Family and Recovery Programs: Thanks to unwavering family support and life-changing recovery programs, Taner found the strength to embrace sobriety. He opens up about the transformative power of service, from being a secretary to a treasurer, which taught him discipline and commitment.

🏥 Career in the Drug and Alcohol Field: Taner's career in rehabs and mental health services highlights the importance of authenticity and personal connection in therapy. His work underscores his dedication to helping others on their recovery journeys.

✨ NA's Profound Impact: Taner credits NA with profoundly shaping every aspect of his life, influencing his relationships and creative pursuits.

This episode is a rollercoaster of emotions, resilience, and the incredible journey of giving back. Don’t miss out on this inspiring conversation! 🌟

We'll dive into the process of finding yourself and striking a balance in recovery. Plus, we'll chat about how spirituality and shared trauma play a role in healing, and the incredible growth and transformation that come with it.

We'll also talk about the impact of our podcast, the importance of not worrying about others' opinions, and Claire's amazing work in coaching and embodiment. Recovery is a leap of faith and all about embracing every emotion. Claire shares her personal journey of accepting her sexuality and the support she found in LGBTQ meetings.

We had such a great time talking with Claire, and we hope you enjoy listening as much as we did!

Marie came into recovery at the age of 23 and has just celebrated 4 years of sobriety, showing that age is just a number and when you're done, you're done.

Her early life was filled with trauma and tragedy but her story offers a strong message of hope that anyone who applies themselves to a twelve step program, can change their stars.

Enjoy :)

From representing New South Wales against the British lions, studying law at Oxford University and becoming a Director at a London bank, Kent has seen the heights of success. Yet, he also faced the depths of isolation, ruled by his drug of choice.

Kents journey is a testament to achievement and a stark reminder that addiction spares no one.

He's one of the good guys.

Join us for a conversation filled with laughter, tears and an inspiring message of hope.

We hope you enjoy it!

They also discuss the role of the higher power in removing these defects and how to take action in the recovery process through service and step work.

They also explore the relationship between defects and shortcomings and the need for humility and courage in asking a higher power to remove these shortcomings.

The conversation ends with a sense of optimism and a commitment to continue the work of recovery.

Steve celebrated 36 years clean time in November and is a truly inspirational person.

From childhood trauma and a life of criminal activity, to finding the path to recovery and the process of self discovery.

"My spirit was extinguished and I couldn't do it anymore. Finally, I held my hands up and I was like, let me try it your way"

They cover challenges like managing work, sleep issues, and addictions to phones and caffeine, as well as concerns about body image.

They stress the importance of daily self-reflection and the negative impact of excessive phone use on family time. Max shares his love for lawn care, and they discuss their recovery journeys, meetings, and staying connected.

The conversation also touches on Mental Health Awareness Week, suicide rates, and the importance of discussing mental health, recognizing warning signs, and the benefits of exercise and self-care.

Lastly they answers some listener questions. We hope you enjoy!

We talk all things sponsorship and how our relationship has blossomed over the years.

John opens up about his gambling addiction and how it brought him to his knees.

He also shares his experience around relapse and how he managed to overcome to odds and is now over 14 years clean.

Come and say hello.

They dive into the age-old debate of nature versus nurture, discuss treatment centers and relapse, and Nick shares his journey from childhood to the present, shedding light on how addiction has been a constant companion throughout.

We hope you find it engaging and insightful!

Danni gets honest about her upbringing and how finding fame at a young age has been a factor in her life long battle against addiction. 

If you are struggling to face up to the reality of the disease of addiction and are looking for some hope and a way out, look no further.

Danni's story proves that anyone can achieve sobriety.

She is an incredible, resilient and inspiring individual who believes that her path is now one of helping others and being a living example that recovery works if you work it.

Come and learn about the significance of these steps in fostering self-awareness, accountability and ultimately inner transformation. 

Tune in for practical tips and personal anecdotes on navigating these pivotal stages of the journey towards personal growth and fulfillment.

From growing up in the care system, to getting clean aged 23 and recently celebrating 10 years of sobriety, its a story full of hope, joy and higher power moments for sure!

Enjoy!

"I think in step two, just be open minded. If you’re open minded enough you will see that hope. Once you see that hope, you can grab that faith. Any trust me, you’ve got that faith, there is no looking back"

From attempted suicide and a heroin addiction in his early twenties, to a life of freedom from active addiction and finding his home in a 12 step fellowship.

Come and join us!

Come on Darren's journey of self discovery which has resulted in thirteen years of sobriety and helping hundreds of fellow recovering addicts along the way.

"To light the flame in someone else, that's a life beyond my wildest dreams."

Miracles do really happen!